"sometimes i think the absence of blood and death throws us into despair. It's as if we feel alive only when we're surrounded by destruction and executions." this is quoted from one of the characters in CArlos Fuentes's novel of revolution and war in Mexio, The Death if Arternio Cruz.

this is taken from the book i read on the drama if everyday life. i found it quite true. the author says that peace is boring. as i have shared with some of my frens about this boring thing. i mean its funny (in a werid way) but true.

now back to whats happening in my life. ookok as usual i am buried wih school work and lots of tests coming up.with june hols comin up.. my teachers are just piling up my to do list.. wow its way up there already!! i guess its really a test to test on my limits. i have been given the post as stage manager for my upcoming school prodution. it's much more than i expected. there are so many things to handle. the responsibilty came when my drama teacher told me "crystal if there's anything i want to know i would ask you" i mean i didnt know i have to know everything and i mean EVERYTHING! well i just have with cope slowly. maybe thru this experience i would learn much more. after all life is about learning new things each day. its sounds not that bad actually.


i watched the people around me. and i realise how amazing and unique each of them are. some of them shy some loud some smart some crazy like me some just being some. haha well its funny how ordinary we claim ourselves to be when we are all so special in our own way. you might not realise it but yes you are. we are all entitled to a certain gift that some of you might know already or some might be still searching. for me i am still searching.. its different when someone tells you that you are special compared to you yourself telling others you are special. i guess thats what i need to learn. its not about being proud its more like confidence and i guess loving urself much more. its only when you know you were made as a special indivduals that you appreciate urself much more.i think sometimes we lack this love for ourself.its diffcult to understand but yet a need to realise.