i cant take it. i am just overwhelmed by sadness. it is a sense of failure adding hopelessness. it wld not have mattered if i did not study. if i did not work hard. but i freaking work so hard. why is it so unfair? why is it that i could not get what i deserved? why is it i have to remember the familar taste of failure? why isnt it gone when i worked hard? so what if the whole world says its ok? i am still a failure. what if i did not have the capability to do it? that i am reaching beyond my stars? that all i have ever dreamed and aimed for was after all a bunch of crap? with such results you will be outcast. i just cant help blaming myself for my failure. after all who is there to blame. you studied and took the paper yourself. just admit that life is unfair. you dun ever sown what you seed. when the whole world congrats you on one particular paper.. you feel like shutting them up. i didnt even put in as much effort. the paper was just bascially easy! but i still have to realise that the other two subject i studied so hard for was useless.. why is it like that?