its funny how some people scare you. haha i just realise it. suddenly i am so glad there is friends. it kinds of prevents people like me, who do things on impulse, from making a wrong move. whoooo.. that was so so close. i am so glad.
i think i have grown older overnight. i made to realise things that i dun want to know and have to put down my pride to allow it to happen or just to forget that it has happened. things are happening around the world. it saddens me to see what is going on. i am beginning to ponder if all this was something of someone's plans. perhaps someone is trying to take over the world. steps by steps this person would create obstacles so great that mankind cant overcome. maybe those movies about end of the world and all those stuff about evil ppl trying to take over the world are true. maybe cartoons like pinky and the brain are true. maybe in a secret corner right now while i am typing all this someone out there is planning to kill more people. maybe maybe maybe.
random thoughts just flowing out to give space for the new week ahead.
over the weekend questions flooded my head over stuff. the world, the church, the passerbys, the friends, the family... there is so many who where what how why.. its so difficult to answer them. i choose to give up answering them and just push it at the back of my head. i didnt want to go thru all the trouble of answering and pondering. "get over with it and move on" thats all i could think of. it was then on sat night when all time stops moving. for that 10 mins during that night i felt the inner desire for something so great to happen, a desire to believe and have faith. the room was lit up by that little candle symbolic of the little hope i have for everyone. it was then i realise how selfish i have been. to think about me and myself and my own problems. i neglected everything worse that was happening around me. who am i to complain? who am i to judge? who am i to feel neglected? i am so blessed just being alive. i should be thankful. so then i decide to try to block those negative thoughts away. i am still trying and praying. hopefully all things turns well.
a treasure that is difficult to keep is better left unkept.
i think i have grown older overnight. i made to realise things that i dun want to know and have to put down my pride to allow it to happen or just to forget that it has happened. things are happening around the world. it saddens me to see what is going on. i am beginning to ponder if all this was something of someone's plans. perhaps someone is trying to take over the world. steps by steps this person would create obstacles so great that mankind cant overcome. maybe those movies about end of the world and all those stuff about evil ppl trying to take over the world are true. maybe cartoons like pinky and the brain are true. maybe in a secret corner right now while i am typing all this someone out there is planning to kill more people. maybe maybe maybe.
random thoughts just flowing out to give space for the new week ahead.
over the weekend questions flooded my head over stuff. the world, the church, the passerbys, the friends, the family... there is so many who where what how why.. its so difficult to answer them. i choose to give up answering them and just push it at the back of my head. i didnt want to go thru all the trouble of answering and pondering. "get over with it and move on" thats all i could think of. it was then on sat night when all time stops moving. for that 10 mins during that night i felt the inner desire for something so great to happen, a desire to believe and have faith. the room was lit up by that little candle symbolic of the little hope i have for everyone. it was then i realise how selfish i have been. to think about me and myself and my own problems. i neglected everything worse that was happening around me. who am i to complain? who am i to judge? who am i to feel neglected? i am so blessed just being alive. i should be thankful. so then i decide to try to block those negative thoughts away. i am still trying and praying. hopefully all things turns well.
a treasure that is difficult to keep is better left unkept.
posted by Crystal @ 23:18
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