i hate being the perfect being
i hate being the joy for others
i hate giving love
then
He came
He showed me how its like to be the perfect being
He showed me how to be the joy
and He showed me how to love

i was tired and fed up with myself.. the laughter has died out and the joy is slowly fading off.. and the heart is weary.. quietly i listen to my heart beat at every stop of my life. then i remembered Your love for me. a deep breathe and strength is regained.
for the past few days my bunch of friends has been sending mails to each other. thanks for their emails that never fails to bring smiles to that shagged face of mine. life has been better just with you guys around.
i need more courage more strength more love to go on esp this week. has been troubled by financial stuff.. money has not been my best friend. i have got to trust more but its tough. and i wanna just earn lots of it so it could be last of my worries.and there is YC elections. accept or reject?? ponder ponder.. i guess i need more prayer but then again i think i know what my answer is..

thank God for being the source of my strength