everything quiets down..
i am tired la.. so sleepy everyday cans.. last night i went to kbox with my friends.. its the second time this week.. needed some extra boost in my life.. it has not been a fantastic week i guess.. have been caught up with orientation camp.. work and work and church stuff.. i am starting to lose faith in being who i am.. i was telling my friend how everyone has already judged me.. not in a very bad way but in a way such that a change in your personality would cause some to view ya differently.. sometimes its tiring to be the person everyone knew for so long.. but then i dun think its a good idea to change.. it requires much more effort and explanation to the people ard you.. and the worst is that you dunno who you are yourself.. you are unsure what you are seeing in the mirror.. what a terrible phase to be in.. hopefully all this growing up and thinking through would pass along fast.. i dun like being in this phase.. sucks..
life has its ups and downs.. my life is filled with this roller coaster mixture of feelings and experience.. what lies before me is uncertainty.. i hate being uncertain and not have control over my own life.. all this emotional shit is getting to me in a way too fast mode.. emotional has become a chore to me.. i dun like how people look at you when you are sad or emotional.. but i cant help being emotional. it is who i am.. so i rather be in that stage.. maybe not too often.. must be tough.. i am starting a new chapter in my life and i should be all set and ready to rock on.. haha
bah bah bah.. nothing much else to say
wondering when is the next time i will see you