a bet

i am on this bet with my friends for 3 days and it starts today. oh well i really hope that it turns out to be what i really want it to be. the sch hols have started but there is no excitement or joy. its just the beginning of my studying period.


i hope that one day he might know that i feel this way everytime he is around. its funny how our feelings play us. sometimes you think he is the only one for you but other times you hate him to the core. sometimes he makes u feel so happy you feel like flying but at other times he makes you feel sad you feel like crying. i hate having such mixed emotions. i dun like being confused and not know what is ahead of me.all i can do now is let time decide for me. i know the old saying of if ya never say you would never know. however if i was to say i might just lose a friendship that i hold so dear. JADED