well well what can i say.. life is full fool of everything. i realise probably this whole working thingy is a waste of time and just to get money. how dumb. wasting my life away like that. till today. i let myself allow others to talk to me. allow myself to take control of things i think i could. allow myself to speak what i feel within. wow.. never felt that relived since dunno when.
i guess i never really got a chance to let myself speak to others. anyways i am moving out of the company soon. so gotta to get adjusted to new peeps again... sigh
moving along i just got back from siglap.. sigh.. i wanna club but its lent. i wanna do smth good and try to be good. buts its tough. damn. tempted by everything. argh. cant wait for easter to come. then joy.dance.drink! yeah... till then got to 'suffer' abit more.
i was just wondering who actually reads my blog. i know 2 people who reads it. i wonder who else. probably time for a head count. hey you!!! yes you the one reading my blog tag me pls. so i know who is reading this all the time. haha funny. werid. but i really eager to know who the hell reads all this crap (sometimes). haha
back to reality. gotta try to get myself up to do things i dun wanna do. i think i am forced to do it. i have got no choice. haha "there is always a choice" sounds like smth i always tell my friend. well thats besides the point.gotta to move on. get going. pick up my speed. stop being blind start looking. damn crap crap.
i havent been at my com for some time. feels like my com grew bigger. haha must be dreaming again. either that or the com at my office is damn small. not used to big com like this. met up with some friends recently. havent got to see them for some time. well something was missing during that lunch we had. i wonder if its me who is distant from this close friendship i used to enjoy. i liked their company a lot. but it seems just weird. havent seen for months.. ppl change...and havent really gotta used to it all.. probably cause i am no more in sch. i really those old sch days where i can be who i want to be. love just laughing ard being silly and loud..pissing my teacher, copying my hwk, being a nag to my class, being kaypo, acting!, bugging dawn, bullying yue liang, disturbing mag mag, teasing eileen, being an irritant to cheo and blackie.. wow those times seems like ages ago.. i miss all of them and more. where have all this fun gone to?
all right stop with all this stuff.. i have got good news for all.. new addition of special ocassion to crystal's calendar! HAPPPY THREESOME DAY! yipee its on the 23rd of every month. founders are me wen and ler yipee... love them all.. big big hugs
